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Two years ago. The time was about 2a.m. I was restless. I had come to remember something I'd thought about someone dear to me that was not good and felt pressed to confess to them. If I did, chances were high that would ruin the relationship I priced irreversibly. I could not go back bed.
GOD had called me into ministry. satan had begun frequenting my house and attacking me. I knew if I didn't deal with this sin soon, if the enemy showed up, it would see the opening made by sin into my life and take me out.
The clock was ticking. Oh, how i fought that confession! I loved this person so much their spouse knew I was their junior friend. They were older, more influential, but each time my divine destiny or my life was in jeopardy, they had the right word or action for me.
How could I hurt one I loved so? The clock was ticking. I didn't dare take chances. So, I caved. I messaged them, but didn't really tell the truth. They may have replied with something like, no worries. But I knew the real truth had not come out. Finally, after several successive messages, the truth did make it's way out. I'm not even sure I'd summoned enough courage to tell the whole entire truth but I did the best I could. It hurt real bad. I waited. They said to me, go to bed.
That was the last kind word.
The next time i saw them in church, I could see the wrestle caused by the pain I caused them. I suspected they were struggling with the decision to not revenge.
Eventually, they caved. But not in the way you'd think. They didn't try to sabotage my present. From where I sat, it seemed they went into the future to process their sabotage in revenge. I watched but said nothing to them.
What they didn't know was that GOD was already punishing me. The area of their life where I had offended them, GOD took a big 'cane' and I knew I deserved that punishment. The punishment/rebuke/chastisement from the LORD is not over even today. I did not complain. GOD is my FATHER, and HE and i have an understanding that I would rather HE dealt with a flaw in me here than let it drag me to hell.
But, this dear senior friend did not know that. When they looked at my life, it seemed perfect, untouched by the emotional pain I had caused them which was far from the truth. I suffered, and publicly too, for what I had done except that the only ones who knew what the punishment was, was GOD and I. Meaning, everything they did to sabotage my future, they will be held accountable for.
Because they did not trust GOD to revenge for them even when GOD did.
It is the same in your life. GOD has dealt revenge for me to people whom I knew and did not know offended me. Sometimes, GOD would handle them then let me know what had happened.
I learned to forgive and let GOD judge and revenge for me after watching how GOD does it. Because you didn't create someone, you don't know how they hurt to the degree they hurt you.
But GOD does. Leaving judgement and vengeance to GOD means you don't go overboard and then have things to answer for on judgement day. It also means you trust GOD.
There is no hurt or pain or offense you cannot leave to GOD, even murder. GOD says HE owes no man. Each person on earth receives justice both when they are alive and when they are gone. GOD will make sure on judgement day when anyone complains that you see how HE punished the person who offended you.
When GOD declared judgement against someone who persecuted me for my salvation, when that judgement began, I was the one who sank to my knees on the hallway, begging GOD that their suffering was enough. Those I'd confessed past sins to, they were the ones who went to the altar to pray for GOD to save my life when satanic attacks nearly took me out in January this year.
GOD has more tools in HIS toolkit than you know. You can never move on until you forgive completely. You can never see clearly when vengeance coats your gaze and drives your choices.
I have been forgiven a lot by GOD and man. I have forgiven a lot too. In all, I've learned to be careful not to offend, but not shy to speak the truth when I see oppression.
It's a balancing act only GOD can help us with. It may not be easy. Some forgiveness took me three years to get to the point of forgiving them. But you know you have forgiven when you mention their name in the place of prayer and there is no twinge in your heart.
Have you forgiven (1) ALL, (2) COMPLETELY, (3) never to mention the offense again?
Forgive. Please. Quit revenge. Stop repeating what happened to every ear. Love again. Grace to you in JESUS name, AMEN!