Varsity 2: Eternal Habits

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I love worshipping GOD. Through the years I lived in sin intentionally after I was saved, but worship tethered me to my KING. I say tethered because while JESUS’ love covered the egregious sins I had dabbled into, I was living below my divine inheritance allocated to me for my time on earth. Because sinful living is a habit; consistent holy living is also a habit. Both are formed by continuous, and consistent practice.


At the time, those twelve years of living in sin, I was so below what GOD prepared that I was walking past humongous blessings completely unaware they were doors opened for me. I was on a schedule with sin. I would strive to live holy, fall off before year three and the sin I would commit would be so layered that if one piece of it did not disqualify me from divine inheritance, another layer of it will.


Until GOD intervened in 2014. August 2014, when GOD interrupted an act of sin and said something that shook me to my core, without condemning me, but loving me harder than I ever imagined, I wept and in that moment, while still in a sin posture, I swore that I would live a holy life no matter how hard I thought it was. I realized JESUS wasn’t this punitive GOD waiting to hammer me because of sin. The only reason JESUS harped on sin was because it separated us whom HE loves from HIM—and put us within satan’s reach when sin occurs.


Since then, I began walking in holiness. Early on, there was this nagging feeling that said I won’t sustain it for long. What will you do when desire comes? What will you do when an opportunity to sin presents itself? You failed other times. You cannot suddenly be able to do it now. I let all that wash over me like waves, but did not let them stay. I stuck with my decision to live a holy life.


Consequences? Within the first twenty-four hours, my boyfriend left me. I was broke and alone. I went to church and a lady at church came to me and handed me an envelope. Inside, was enough money to get me to my new job. But it was not enough. When I ran out, I walked into church and an usher, a guy I barely knew and don’t remember ever saying one word to, handed me money. No questions asked and no explanation given. 


Two different people whom I did tell a word of what was going on, gave me money and didn’t ask a single question. I was sold on holiness.


Then one day, temptation knocked. My biggest fear at the time was before me. Temptation and opportunity to sin. I came a thread-close to falling. Suddenly, I did something I had never done. I cried out to GOD. “JESUS, help me!” Suddenly, the entire feeling of temptation dissipated like vapor. I cannot explain in words what happened. But I can tell you that later, when Heaven showed me what had been waiting at the other side of that temptation, (it was a trap by the enemy to finish himself and not me), I was eternally grateful I didn’t fall. 


I began seeing temptation and sin differently. Instead of them being something I struggled against, I saw them the way I should—doors for the enemy that must stay shut. It became easier with the grace of GOD available to me. I was more open with GOD. I told HIM things I would not have before. We became friends. And then, family. 


GOD told me things you would tell your own family. I told GOD things I was scared to admit to anyone. The closer GOD and I got, the more purging I needed from the sins of my past. I came to a bridge and I had to cross it. GOD graced me. I confessed what I had kept secret to my family, which broke their hearts and freed me from satan’s manipulation forever. 


I was finally ready for divine destiny. GOD was healing my soul, and preparing me to go help others heal. I was writing Christian fiction from that same month my consecration happened until date, by GOD’s grace. I was growing in different areas of life. As GOD taught me by HIS written word, HE also taught me in dreams, visions, revelations, trances, etc. I was gaining ascendancy in the spirit realm, growing from being only a child of GOD to a servant of GOD. What an honor!


GOD gave me instructions that were to prepare me for divine destiny. Trained me in the rudiments of spiritual warfare. Gave me grace every time I stumbled. I didn’t know what GOD was preparing me for, but I was simply ready to go with GOD. Step by step, GOD led me, preparing me for more than a decade.


I worshipped more, listened to more preachers messages, wrote sermons into my books, listened to older Christians, all that was preparing me. I loved GOD’s people. Attended concerts. I wasn’t a church goers but would log on online when I could and thoroughly enjoy the service. Because of some of the trials I faced, I could no longer serve in church without things unraveling, so I stuck to serving GOD in writing Christian Fiction.


I loved THE LORD. HE loved me more. Our love was ours there was no outsider to it. GOD could come to me at any time. I would be asleep and GOD THE HOLY SPIRIT would come and make modifications to my soul’s biology while I watched. I trusted HIM. HE is my GOD and FATHER and I love HIS company whenever I am privileged to have it. 


I began to know THE GOD HEAD. With time, GOD let me be able to tell, when necessary, when THE PERSON I was interacting with is GOD THE FATHER, SON, or HOLY SPIRIT.


GOD pruned me more. satan targeted me more. I grew in CHRIST. I began training for divine office on earth.


When the right time came, three years ago, I was commissioned by GOD into divine priesthood. All that was in the spirit realm. I was elated. I didn’t know that was step one. More divine promotions came and have not stopped. There is no limit to how high GOD can promote you or I. The purity of our hearts determine the limit. As long as our hearts stay pure, we will enjoy GOD so much that earth for us, becomes an extension of heaven.


That is how this sinner who wrote herself off divine destiny was grafted in by GOD. GOD can and will do the same for you if you let HIM. 
Just promise me one thing: you won’t make it as hard for HIS MAJESTY like I did. Once GOD chooses you for lifting, no force on earth or in hell can stop HIM. It may take time, battles, and patience, but GOD has integrity. GOD is dependable. Wait for HIM. HE will give you a hope and a future that nobody can take from you!

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